We're just two people
Living in one big world
Waking up every day
Trying to give life a meaning
We have our own problems
And secrets that we keep
In the deepest parts of our hearts
Hoping that it would remain hidden
But little did we know
Our walls tend to crumble
What lies deep inside
Some are no longer hidden
We just need someone special
Who could understand
Because it's too complicated
For most people to comprehend
We're too afraid to admit
Though we're also not sure
Or maybe it's just me
Being uncertain as always
We're just normal people
The desire of being together
Wanting the company
And the feeling of comfort and being loved
Whatever it is
We're just two people
Living in one big world
Trying to find love and acceptance
anis.
Monday, 23 February 2015
cukup
Suka?
Mungkin.
Benci?
Mungkin.
Cinta?
Tidak.
Suka hanya kerana selesa.
Cukuplah sekadar teman sahaja.
Wednesday, 18 February 2015
#7 some secrets
It was break time and I wasn't up for anything. Nothing could enter my system without it being thrown up. The only thing my stomach would tolerate were energy bars but unfortunately enough, I had no supply of energy bars in my locker. I usually keep quite an amount of them in my locker as this always happen to me. Thank God I had no class after. I head out to the school compound, the cool air blowing softly as little snow were falling slowly. I walked to one of the trees and sat, leaning against it. Not too say that I was hungry, but some food would be awesome.
As I was closing my eyes, I felt something drop onto my lap. I abruptly tilted my head, to look at the person standing in front of me. Wait, wasn't I alone? I didn't realise anyone walking towards me, and there standing in front of me was one of the most mysterious person I've ever met. Now just what is he doing here?
"What are you doing here?" I demanded.
He ignored my question and focused his gaze on my lap, asking me to look down. I followed, looking down at the object on my lap. I was too taken aback to even say anything. I looked up back at him with an awaiting and questioning look. Instead of doing what he should do, answering me that is, he laid on the soft snow beside me with his arms above that his hands were behind his head. He was always so calm and nonchalant. I don't even know how he does that.
"Eat," he then demanded.
"Why?" I challenged.
"Eat," he repeated, his tone was flat.
Unwillingly, but also gratefully, I peeled open the wrapper of the energy bar. I bit a large bite as he looked at me with a blank expression plastered across his face. All of my wonders and curiosity flowed away from my mind as I savoured the chocolate flavour in my mouth. As I was munching on the last bite, my conciousness came back. I let the silence last a few more seconds before proceeding to questioning him. There were thousands of questions but I decided to go slow.
"What are you doing here?"
"What makes you think I'll answer your question?" he questioned back.
"Uh, excuse me? Okay, so let me get this straight. You just came here, gave me food and suddenly you're all so snobbish?" I scoffed.
He chuckled. In a sarcastic way of course. If that's even possible.
"I have the every right to be here," he stated, a-matter-of-factly. "Why is there a problem?"
"You? You have the every right to be here?" I scoffed, again. "Yeah right, not if you're not..."
A sudden thought crossed my mind as I realised the probability of it being true. I glanced to my right to see a smirk forming on his lips. No...
"No. No, you're not." I said, trying to deny the fact, which has been revealed. He closed his eyes and the corners of his mouth tugged slightly upwards.
"Whatever you say, love."
anis.
As I was closing my eyes, I felt something drop onto my lap. I abruptly tilted my head, to look at the person standing in front of me. Wait, wasn't I alone? I didn't realise anyone walking towards me, and there standing in front of me was one of the most mysterious person I've ever met. Now just what is he doing here?
"What are you doing here?" I demanded.
He ignored my question and focused his gaze on my lap, asking me to look down. I followed, looking down at the object on my lap. I was too taken aback to even say anything. I looked up back at him with an awaiting and questioning look. Instead of doing what he should do, answering me that is, he laid on the soft snow beside me with his arms above that his hands were behind his head. He was always so calm and nonchalant. I don't even know how he does that.
"Eat," he then demanded.
"Why?" I challenged.
"Eat," he repeated, his tone was flat.
Unwillingly, but also gratefully, I peeled open the wrapper of the energy bar. I bit a large bite as he looked at me with a blank expression plastered across his face. All of my wonders and curiosity flowed away from my mind as I savoured the chocolate flavour in my mouth. As I was munching on the last bite, my conciousness came back. I let the silence last a few more seconds before proceeding to questioning him. There were thousands of questions but I decided to go slow.
"What are you doing here?"
"What makes you think I'll answer your question?" he questioned back.
"Uh, excuse me? Okay, so let me get this straight. You just came here, gave me food and suddenly you're all so snobbish?" I scoffed.
He chuckled. In a sarcastic way of course. If that's even possible.
"I have the every right to be here," he stated, a-matter-of-factly. "Why is there a problem?"
"You? You have the every right to be here?" I scoffed, again. "Yeah right, not if you're not..."
A sudden thought crossed my mind as I realised the probability of it being true. I glanced to my right to see a smirk forming on his lips. No...
"No. No, you're not." I said, trying to deny the fact, which has been revealed. He closed his eyes and the corners of his mouth tugged slightly upwards.
"Whatever you say, love."
anis.
Sunday, 8 February 2015
problem
Everyone is the same
Every single person is the same
Why?
Because everyone has problems
Every single human being in this world has problems
No matter how many, one or thousands
No matter how serious, small or big
Everyone has problems
She might not show it
And he might not look like one who had any
But believe me
Everyone is the same
Everyone has problems
She might always laugh
And he might always seem happy
But no matter how hard they try
Everyone is the same
Everyone has problems
Some people try to run from them
Some people try to solve them
And some people try to go around it
Some people try to hide them
Some people don't
And some people just can't
It's not as easy as it seem to be
To run away from them
To solve them
To hide them away so no one would know
It's difficult
It's tiring
But that's just how it is
That's why they are called problems
Problems are just inevitable in life
They keep coming
And coming
No matter how much we despise them
They keep coming
She might always smile and laugh
And he might always show signs of cheer, joy and happiness
She might always seem carefree and problem-free
And he might always make jokes and cause the laughter of others
But their friends don't know
That she cries herself to sleep
And he punches walls
That she tells her problems to someone while crying non-stop
And he doesn't have anyone to talk to
Never judge someone from their outer appearance
And outer self
Because everyone wears a mask
Everyone hides behind their masks
Some people might have invisible masks
And some might have translucent ones
Some people might have holed masks
And some might have thick metal ones
We just won't know who has which type of mask
Because this world is just full of secrets and problems
anis.
Every single person is the same
Why?
Because everyone has problems
Every single human being in this world has problems
No matter how many, one or thousands
No matter how serious, small or big
Everyone has problems
She might not show it
And he might not look like one who had any
But believe me
Everyone is the same
Everyone has problems
She might always laugh
And he might always seem happy
But no matter how hard they try
Everyone is the same
Everyone has problems
Some people try to run from them
Some people try to solve them
And some people try to go around it
Some people try to hide them
Some people don't
And some people just can't
It's not as easy as it seem to be
To run away from them
To solve them
To hide them away so no one would know
It's difficult
It's tiring
But that's just how it is
That's why they are called problems
Problems are just inevitable in life
They keep coming
And coming
No matter how much we despise them
They keep coming
She might always smile and laugh
And he might always show signs of cheer, joy and happiness
She might always seem carefree and problem-free
And he might always make jokes and cause the laughter of others
But their friends don't know
That she cries herself to sleep
And he punches walls
That she tells her problems to someone while crying non-stop
And he doesn't have anyone to talk to
Never judge someone from their outer appearance
And outer self
Because everyone wears a mask
Everyone hides behind their masks
Some people might have invisible masks
And some might have translucent ones
Some people might have holed masks
And some might have thick metal ones
We just won't know who has which type of mask
Because this world is just full of secrets and problems
anis.
terpendam
There's just too much
anis.
I'm not sure whether am I able to hold on any longer
I just don't know
Kadang terlalu banyak perasaan
Dan banyak juga perkara yang bermain di minda
Sehinggakan kita sendiri macam tak tahu apa yang sedang berlaku
But one thing for sure
After everything that happened last year
I finally learned a few very important lessons
Aku belajar untuk tidak mengambil kisah
Bukan secara negatif
Tetapi lebih kepada positif
I learned that not all problems are worth our time
Some of 'em are just a waste of time
And are stupid
Some of 'em are petty stuffs
And are because of immature people
I learned to ignore the unnecessary
And the unworthy
I learned to act more mature
And to think before I act
I also learned to not make a big fuss over petty things (I guess)
'Cause they say
"I'm not anti-social. I'm just anti-bullshit."
anis.
#6 you're kidding
It had been some time since I last saw him. The one near my bike that is. Ever since that day, I had been thinking about him a few times. He was just too mysterious and suspicious. I was also curious as to who he really was.
To be honest, he looked quite shocked, seeing me as I started walking next to him. His hands were shoved in the front pockets of his jacket. And of course, never leaving his DSLR. It just makes me wonder, doesn't he ever get annoyed with that thing always hanging from his neck? I was about to ask him about it but he broke the silence before I could.
"What are you doing?"
"What?" I questioned him back. I mean, couldn't he see that I was walking? The corner of his mouth suddenly tugged upwards, but it only lasted for a few seconds. If I hadn't been looking at him from the corner of my eyes, I wouldn't have caught it. He shook his head and remained silent.
Honestly, I didn't know what I was doing. I had no idea where were we going. I kept following him as he didn't say anything of it.
As we were walking, I finally recognised the route we're using. It was one of the ways to the park, only further than the usual route I take. The streets were quite empty as it was still early in the morning. Once we reached the park, he continued walking to his usual tree. He easily climbed up the tree and sat on one of its branch. I was debating on whether to follow him or just stay down, and decided to just hang around below. I walked a bit further from the tree and lied down on my back. I glanced a bit to the tree and saw him capturing pictures using his camera. God knows what does he take pictures of.
I decided to push away all thoughts of him and enjoy the cold winter blow. I closed my eyes and spread my arms outwards. I have never felt calmer.
As I was opening my eyes, I nearly screamed. With his face above mine, merely inches from my face and his hands by the side of my face, his eyes was intently looking at mine. We were looking at each other's faces upside down. I returned his gaze for as long as I could.
For a second, I thought I've seen those pair of eyes somewhere before.
But of course, I have. This is practically the fourth time I've looked into those eyes. They were dark blue. I could see the slight blue of his iris and those long lashes sweeping his cheeks every time. Suddenly it was like as if the space between us was getting smaller. I started to panic. What's happening?
I nearly pushed his face when he lifted his head allowing the cold air to blow on my face. I didn't realise I was holding my breath when I started breathing again.
What the heck just happened?
anis.
In fact, I was too busy thinking about him that I nearly didn't realise the day its started snowing. I woke up one morning and did my usual routine. But only after getting out of the house, I realised that it was snowing. Usually I would realise the snow falling once I look out of my bedroom window.
It was snowing as I was walking down the street, layered with thin snow. Almost coincidently, my eyes caught a familiar figure walking further in front of me. I decided to catch up with him by increasing my speed.
"Hey, not important." I was trying to joke around as he did say before that his name was not important. He turned around as I called over.
To be honest, he looked quite shocked, seeing me as I started walking next to him. His hands were shoved in the front pockets of his jacket. And of course, never leaving his DSLR. It just makes me wonder, doesn't he ever get annoyed with that thing always hanging from his neck? I was about to ask him about it but he broke the silence before I could.
"What are you doing?"
"What?" I questioned him back. I mean, couldn't he see that I was walking? The corner of his mouth suddenly tugged upwards, but it only lasted for a few seconds. If I hadn't been looking at him from the corner of my eyes, I wouldn't have caught it. He shook his head and remained silent.
Honestly, I didn't know what I was doing. I had no idea where were we going. I kept following him as he didn't say anything of it.
As we were walking, I finally recognised the route we're using. It was one of the ways to the park, only further than the usual route I take. The streets were quite empty as it was still early in the morning. Once we reached the park, he continued walking to his usual tree. He easily climbed up the tree and sat on one of its branch. I was debating on whether to follow him or just stay down, and decided to just hang around below. I walked a bit further from the tree and lied down on my back. I glanced a bit to the tree and saw him capturing pictures using his camera. God knows what does he take pictures of.
I decided to push away all thoughts of him and enjoy the cold winter blow. I closed my eyes and spread my arms outwards. I have never felt calmer.
As I was opening my eyes, I nearly screamed. With his face above mine, merely inches from my face and his hands by the side of my face, his eyes was intently looking at mine. We were looking at each other's faces upside down. I returned his gaze for as long as I could.
For a second, I thought I've seen those pair of eyes somewhere before.
But of course, I have. This is practically the fourth time I've looked into those eyes. They were dark blue. I could see the slight blue of his iris and those long lashes sweeping his cheeks every time. Suddenly it was like as if the space between us was getting smaller. I started to panic. What's happening?
I nearly pushed his face when he lifted his head allowing the cold air to blow on my face. I didn't realise I was holding my breath when I started breathing again.
What the heck just happened?
anis.
Thursday, 5 February 2015
#5 who are you?
It was very busy and crowded as always. Everyone was walking here and there as school has just ended for the day.
It was finally winter. All the leaves had fallen off and the trees were bare but it wasn't yet snowing. The air was getting cooler by day and I just couldn't wait when it starts to snow. Jack Frost would come out and the land would be covered in white. The beauty of it would always be overwhelming. The feeling of soft snow in my hands and beneath me as I lay on the cold white land.
I decided to continue with my usual routine; going to the park that is.With my sketchbook and earphones plugged in. As I was walking towards my bike, my eyes caught a familiar lean figure standing next to it, leaning against the metal fence. I increased the speed of my steps as I took out the key for my bike lock.
"Um, excuse me?"
He turned around and I saw his face and those gorgeous pair of eyes, recognising him straight away. And as usual he was holding his camera in his hands. I rolled my eyes as he smirked at me. Gosh, what is he doing here?
"Why in the world are you here?"
"That's a question you need to find out yourself."
He's getting more annoying by minute. I rolled my eyes again before protesting.
"Ugh, why should I? I got no time - "
"Remember what I said the first time we talked?"
I was about to say nothing as he ignored me the first time but decided against it. I knew he was referring to the time when we were in the cafe.
"What? Which one? 'No, you don't but you should'?
He nodded indicating that it was the one he's referring to. But I still don't get it. I gave him some time, thinking that maybe he was going to elaborate further what he meant. But I was wrong. He kept quiet as he looked at me with a blank face. This guy was really confusing me. I gave him a questioning look, asking him to explain, but instead he just shrugged his shoulders. He finally darted his eyes away from me and turned to walk off.
"Wait, what's your name? How old are you? And...and...just...who are you for god's sake?" I was beginning to get frustrated.
"My name is not important. I'm one year older than you. And who am I depends on who you assume I am." I was speechless as I was taken aback. How the heck does he know my age?
He didn't turn back. He just answered back, walking away. This just couldn't get any weirder.
anis.
It was finally winter. All the leaves had fallen off and the trees were bare but it wasn't yet snowing. The air was getting cooler by day and I just couldn't wait when it starts to snow. Jack Frost would come out and the land would be covered in white. The beauty of it would always be overwhelming. The feeling of soft snow in my hands and beneath me as I lay on the cold white land.
I decided to continue with my usual routine; going to the park that is.With my sketchbook and earphones plugged in. As I was walking towards my bike, my eyes caught a familiar lean figure standing next to it, leaning against the metal fence. I increased the speed of my steps as I took out the key for my bike lock.
"Um, excuse me?"
He turned around and I saw his face and those gorgeous pair of eyes, recognising him straight away. And as usual he was holding his camera in his hands. I rolled my eyes as he smirked at me. Gosh, what is he doing here?
"Why in the world are you here?"
"That's a question you need to find out yourself."
He's getting more annoying by minute. I rolled my eyes again before protesting.
"Ugh, why should I? I got no time - "
"Remember what I said the first time we talked?"
I was about to say nothing as he ignored me the first time but decided against it. I knew he was referring to the time when we were in the cafe.
"What? Which one? 'No, you don't but you should'?
He nodded indicating that it was the one he's referring to. But I still don't get it. I gave him some time, thinking that maybe he was going to elaborate further what he meant. But I was wrong. He kept quiet as he looked at me with a blank face. This guy was really confusing me. I gave him a questioning look, asking him to explain, but instead he just shrugged his shoulders. He finally darted his eyes away from me and turned to walk off.
"Wait, what's your name? How old are you? And...and...just...who are you for god's sake?" I was beginning to get frustrated.
"My name is not important. I'm one year older than you. And who am I depends on who you assume I am." I was speechless as I was taken aback. How the heck does he know my age?
He didn't turn back. He just answered back, walking away. This just couldn't get any weirder.
anis.
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