broken

she's tired of crying
she's tired of being miserable
and sad
she plugs in her earphones
plays her favourite songs
with the highest volume on
wanting to shut the world around her
and stay in the secret world of hers
she tries to push all the unnecessary away
and focus on what is
she's tired of games
and she doesn't want to play no more
she's tired of falling
and she's had it with 'em
she feels vulnerable
and insecure
and wishes for security
safety
certainty
and protection
and care
she's hurt and scarred
not being able to be fixed
and mended
stuck in being broken
and maybe
just maybe
she's not tired of being broken

anis.