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10th of January 2015.

Back to school.

You know that time when you feel so lonely? I don't know how to say this, but it's like although you have many people and 'friends' around you, you just don't feel the company, you just don't feel happy.

Macam takde benda yang boleh buat kita rasa happy. I have no idea what's wrong with me. But I honestly feel lifeless.

I used to think that I have so many friends. Friends that could really make me happy. But it took me a long time to realize that all this while, I have never had a friend that was really... a friend yang memang kawan sejati, kawan mcm Nabi Muhammad SAW dengan Saidina Abu Bakar.

I've always wondered is it true? To whoever's reading this, I'm sorry. I'm not trying to offend you. It's hard, you know. I mean, I'm very grateful that Allah sent me friends who helped me and cheered me. But everytime, whenever I move, or whenever I'm no longer around them, I feel like I'm forgotten. Gosh please don't get me wrong. I'm not trying to seek for attention. I just need to let out what I'm currently feeling. I just need to let go of all the things that is burdening my head.

I'm not alone. But I feel lonely.

anis.