random i guess

I was just lying down aimlessly looking back into my life when something struck me.

Last year had been one of the hardest years in my life so far. So far. There were so many things happening and there were times when I couldn't be more depressed. Wait no, wrong choice of words. Maybe 'stressed out' is better. 

Anyway, it was a very busy year. And if I'd remember it correctly, I was a very active blogger. 

Huh.

Active ke? Boleh lah.

Anyway, I was quite active as I had so many things to let out. I had so many stories to share. And it felt fun to type it all out.

But since the school holidays started, I stopped updating my blog. It's like I disappeared into thin air. I was too busy, some weeks enjoying my holidays and the rest enjoying my time at home. Then recently, I thought of continuing to update my blog again. I felt bored. I wanted to type again. To share stories. 

But as I was thinking of what to type about, I realized that I got nothing. Macam takde benda langsung untuk tulis.

And I thought, "Seriously? Aku takde benda nak tulis? I mean, before this, I've always had things to be shared. But now, I feel like I'm boring. I don't have anything."

'Cause honestly, before this everytime I want to write something it means that I got something. But now I'm just out of ideas. I was bored.

But of course after sometime thinking about it again, I figured out something. Well if not, then I wouldn't be writing now. 

I realized that back then, when I had so many things to write, I was also tired. I said that I was tired of all the things that was happening.

Banyak sangat benda yang stressing and depressing. I was tired and I really needed some peace. I was absolutely in need of a holiday. Free from all the dramas and chaos.

And sejak cuti, memang aku dapat ketenangan tu semua. And suddenly, now I'm missing those chaos just because I want to update my blog.

So what I'm trying to say is that, I should actually take the chance of this remaining week of holiday before the new adventure comes in later on. Actually, saje nak cerita. Because I think it is very important to cherish the present while you could enjoy it. Sure, the future might be more interesting. But that's for later, to be discovered. Might as well, we enjoy what's present before it becomes a past.

So yeah I guess that's just it for now. Haha this was quite random. Saje saje. 

anis.